Oh! The Huge Manatee

Well, I got one piston firing so my life is running like a lawnmower. Brake issue is taken care of at the moment. Now I just have to get caught up on homework, get caught up on bills, get my tooth fixed, clean my room, clean up my Pennsic shit, do laundry (which includes a trip to the laundry mat), practice on my dunbek (so that Ishtar doesn’t kill me in October), and so all this plus more and still have something of a social life.

Not that a social life has ever been a priority.

Normally, I have reserved this site for things that are news worthy. But I am tired and I haven’t done this in awhile and I need to keep my chops up.

This is a just quick “What the hell have I been up to” blog.

So, I had this brake problem. Tried to fix it myself but it was costing me more and more and I wasn’t getting anywhere. Worse was that they were getting worse. So I spent the right money and paid a professional to do it.

I had a serious tooth ache a couple of weeks back. So bad that I scheduled an emergency dental appointment. They said I had an infection and that before they could do anything, they (meaning me) had to get rid of the infection. So a bunch of meds later, I feel better. But I had to re-schedule the appointment to get the tooth fixed because I was completely exhausted. Still am. Running on shear will power. So we will see if I can make it to the next appointment before it starts to really hurt again.

School started back up. Because of the brake issue and the tooth issue, I have gotten completely behind. I have never been this behind with something in my life. I am very concerned that I am going to end up failing one of my classes if not more. So that is going to be the biggest battle.

Because of the other issues, I have trashed my roommates house. Since I got back from Pennsic, I have needed to clean and pack away that stuff. That is not happening and on top of it, my room is getting slowly trashed. I don’t think I have opened mail in like a month. But, it’s getting better. It’s getting better, right?

I have had to basically close up shop on my business. I wasn’t actually doing anything anyway. I had one customer and I was doing a terrible job for them. I still need to clean up the mess that I made there.

I have a ton of web page designing that I want to do but I can’t get to it. Funny how when you get to something that you actually enjoy, you never get any time to do it.

Work has actually been a haven for me. I may regret saying this tomorrow but I even like the people that don’t even care for me there. I feel I am starting to get some of it so I don’t feel so stupid all the time. That’s a nice feeling. Going to work and not feeling like you are the dumbest person in the room.

While all this has been going on, I still have time to wish that I was dating. If you are wondering why I am not (see above). I did realize that I don’t like meeting new people and that I have become ok with that. Which means that if I am going to be ok with that, I need to be ok with being alone. Which alone isn’t so bad but being around certain people, I have actually accidentally gotten emotionally involved. This hasn’t helped matters. So I am working out how to undo that. It’s the best plan. I can’t feel that way about someone that doesn’t back to me. I have learned in my life that I have to take care of it and not to punish the other person or the friendship because of it.

The good news is (unfortunately) something I can’t talk about at all. (welcome to my life). Some may say it is superstitious, but if you lived my life you would know that every time I get excited about something or want to talk about something (or both) it turns to shit. So I am not going to say anything and hope that fate throws this dog a bone for once.

Sidenote: I am a good guy. I try really hard to be a good guy. I put people first before myself and give as much as I can when I can. All I am asking fate, old buddy, old pal, help a brother out! We already know that no matter how low you take me I am still going to keep going. So let’s stop going there to find out. Let’s move on and work on helping others.

With all this, fall is upon us and winter is around the corner. That is a whole other ball of crap to deal with.

For my friends, as a favor to me, if you see something that I should take care of, keep it to your self! It seems every time that someone says something to be nice or help out, it goes from being an option to something that I have to do. Someone said last week that I should get new tires before winter. If I have to replace all 4 tires on my car because of a freak situation, I am going to come and beat the crap out of you!

Really, if you want to help, if you give a brother a hand, just ask. I have a list…LOL. That, or send floods of women my way. LOL

Other than that, let me talk your ear off for a moment and feed me coffee.

Because besides everything, I am digging every minute!